1. Goal 1: Seeing 199 on the scale before 2011. I gained 2 lbs this week, putting me back at 219.6 and I hate it.
2. Goal 2: Trying one new healthy recipe a week. I don't think we tried a single new thing this week. Epic fail.
3. Goal 3: Working out 3 times a week. Another epic fail. Between family dinners, Halloween, and just plain lack of motivation, I didn't get to the gym once. I'm not counting all the walking we did from house to house on Halloween either.
I dropped the ball big time on all 3 counts, and it's not okay despite what everyone has said all week. I appreciate my family and friends trying to take some of the sting out, really I do, but I'm not making excuses. Yes, it was my birthday this week. Yes, that only comes once a year. But guess what? So do Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Year's, Valentine's Day, Easter, etc. If I validate my bad week full of bad choices based on that theory, what's to stop me from using it EVERY holiday? Nothing. Excuses are what got me up to 250 lbs in the first place. I had an excuse for everything- why I couldn't work out, why I picked up McDonald's instead of cooking, why I just needed that second or third cupcake.. No more excuses. Instead of thoroughly enjoying my birthday-that-only-comes-once-a-year, I need to focus on the changes necessary to ensure I'm around for MORE birthdays.
Buckling that easily kind of scared me with all the holidays coming up, so I'm determined to do whatever I can to avoid this at Thanksgiving, not that I think holidays are the enemy... If anything, this week showed me that despite losing weight and having some very successful weeks, I'm still an emotional eater. Apparently, that's not just going to go away because I can follow a plan. I need to start working on WHY I'm eating just as much as what and how much I'm eating if I want this to stick. Losing the weight kind of feels like treating the side effects or symptoms, not the actual problem, and that just won't do because I want this to be the last time I have to fight this weight loss battle.
I'll put my soap box away now :) I'm definitely in a better mood now after being back on track the last 2 days, even though none of what caused this week to be stressful has changed. I think at least part of feeling so awful (think emo blob from outer space) was directly related to all the junk I ate, and the lack of movement. I don't care how good something tastes or makes me feel at that moment, it's not worth another week like this. Now, hopefully I can remember all of this at Thanksgiving!
Hope everyone else had a better week! :)
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