Fluids for the day are over 150 oz, and I've got another 32 oz bottle I'm nursing. Calories are at 928 for the day, but I may be having a toasted english muffin with peanut butter (it's my favorite post-workout snack because of the fiber/protein) as a snack in a bit, IF I am hungry, which would bring me to 1118. Allan's 1200 calorie plan is not impossible when you're making your food choices work for you. I don't starve myself, I stop when I'm satisfied, I exercise 6 days a week, and I drink the water. Aside from pushing myself when it comes to exercising, none of it is hard physically, but it does take commitment. Although I've been dieting since April, I didn't get that part until October, and I'll be the first one to admit it. Once it finally clicked, I've averaged about 2 lbs a week and a lot of the mental struggles that come with all this weight are getting easier. You know, the "fat girl" voice? The voice that tells you a brownie will make you feel better, or that you earned that bread stick after all your hard work, or makes a list of excuses for every bad choice you make. I don't know if that voice will ever completely go away, but it does get a lot easier to ignore as you go along if you're consistent. Last night for example.. I made chocolate chip cookies for the boys and wasn't tempted the least bit to have one myself. I've kept junk like that out of the house for so long because my self-control just wasn't ready for that. After limiting my sugar and junk consistently now, it's nowhere near the temptation it was even a month ago. I still don't believe in having a "restricted foods list" because I know how well that's worked out for me personally in the past, but I'm learning which foods are going to trigger my cravings and I avoid them. Holy shenanigans Batman, I think common sense may finally be taking on my emotional eating habits! Who knew?
Now where was I going with all this..? Right. Commitment. There are so many things I would love to be doing other than working out. Hours upon hours of things I'd probably enjoy more. But, as a working wife and mother, sometimes I have to make choices. When it's time to make those choices- meal planning and exercise never get cut anymore. Ever. I made my health a priority, and I've committed to doing what I know is necessary to improve it. If that means I can't watch The Event? So be it. Really, I finally just deleted the 4-5 episodes that were still saved on my DVR because I'm never going to get around to watching them. The Walking Dead and Biggest Loser are it for me simply because I don't have enough time to watch every good show on TV and still get my exercise in along with everything else I've committed to (my family being number one). Down time with family and friends is still high on my list, because God knows some weeks it's the only thing that keeps me sane. Balance.. I think I'm finally learning balance.
Blogging is also pretty high on my list because, let's face it, some days are a huge struggle but knowing I'd have to confess here can sometimes tip the scale (pun intended) in my favor. I'm not used to having people believe in me, or say they're proud of me.. not even my husband (which I pointed out to him last night upon realizing this). Cheating at this point would not only be falling short of my own personal expectations for myself, but I feel like I'd be letting everyone else down as well. Nothing about that is awesome, so let's not! I know Thanksgiving has come and gone, but I wanted to let everyone that comes by and leaves words of encouragement, or threats of an ass-kicking if I start slacking off (which I love you for!!), anything- that I truly am thankful for all of you. Y'all are the best support system ever!
And I'm from Memphis, I'm allowed to say y'all ;)