And my scale said I was UP 2 lbs from Sunday this morning. There's no way that's even possible, but I double checked. And triple checked. I'm trying not to let it bother me yet, it could just be water retention, but from what? If it's not gone soon, I may start posting my food intake- maybe someone else can see something I'm missing because there's no way I've got 2 lbs of phlegm and lactic acid, you know? Oy. A coworker gave me magic hippie tea today that helped with the phlegm some. Mint, menthol, other leafy stuff.. you know... magic hippie tea. ;-)
On to why I'm putting off my to-do list to post tonight.. New Year's Eve is Friday, and everyone will be making their resolutions. Many won't see the beginning of February, mine never did. I've spent the last several days thinking about my 2o11 resolutions. Here's what I've got so far:
Why? Go back- my resolutions in the past have never even seen February, remember?! Like the phrase says, continuing to do the same thing expecting different results is insane. This year is different. This year, I am different. You'll find no resolutions here. Instead, I'm making plans to stay consistent with the habits I've developed over 2010, and build on them.
Eating healthier? Check. To build on this, I'll be eating "cleaner" as much as I can with 2 boys in the house. More to come on this later.
Exercising regularly? Check (until the last 2-3 weeks due to injury and head/chest cold). To build on this, not quite sure what I'm doing yet. For now, I've got to work on just getting back into it while still getting what's left of the crud out of my chest. Working out isn't really working out with all the coughing that starts up.. I'll get there though.
Sleeping, vitamins, etc? Check-- sorta! Obviously there's more to health than just losing weight. Sleep is one area I struggle with. I won't let Dr. H give me sleep Rx, it's melatonin when I get desperate, but mostly I just need to make myself get in bed at a decent hour. I take forever to fall asleep, so I need to plan ahead and give myself extra time. Also, I did upgrade from my gummy vitamins to big-girl vitamins this week! Don't laugh, adult vitamins have always made me nauseated (see? I'm sensitive to all these pills!), so it was flintstones or gummies for me. I've started taking them right before bed though, and that seems to help a lot.
I'm not setting a deadline for hitting goal this year. Even setting the "199 by 2011" goal has been counterproductive the closer we get to the New Year. As I did the one time I got close to breaking it a few years ago, I freaked out. Despite what I said, I got too anxious when I saw how close I was, and started obsessing over every bite I took. Not productive, not for me at least. It's completely worked against me and taken the focus off the work, which is essentially why I had to drop out of most of the challenges. I was too focused on the end goal rather than the work I needed to do to get there.. if that makes sense.
Another area I really want to work on is handling my frustrations better (I stole this one from Lanie!). I try to avoid the drama, be it family or blogland (and there's been so much lately!). I read what I want, I comment if I feel like I have something helpful to add or if I just want a blogger buddy to know that I care, and I stay out of all the wars. I'm trying to control my moods without medicinal assistance right now, and some days, it's a struggle. I have a ridiculous fear of becoming one of those people that takes a dozen pills daily, most of them to counter the side effects caused by 1-2 pills. My mom's one of those people (not sure how many she's on now) that started off needing blood pressure medicine and Zoloft. Then it was Ambien to combat insomnia from Zoloft. Now she's on at least 6 that I know about. Right now, I'm on birth control and nothing else. I quit the Buspar, we'll see how much trouble I am in for that next week.. I just don't want to become reliant on pills unless it truly is necessary. If I can get the same mood stabilizers from exercise, that's what I'm aiming for.
On another note, I started reading Jackie Warner's book to get ready for Phase 4, and I thought there was a lot of great info in there, although I think the 2 "treat meals" is a lot! Not so much apparently, Allan said it's really just a plan with her name on it. Well, damn. So much for getting ahead, eh? I really did like the cleaner eating stuff, and that it pushes such low sugar (no white anything too), which is what made me want to try the cleaner eating stuff. I'm still reading through the exercise section, and the circuits look scary! I'd recommend the book, but since the diet is apparently just stuff with her name on it, and the Phase 4 packets will surely have the exercises in it, really no point I guess. If you have a Nook, I'll lend it to you though :-D
Time to go take advantage of Mr. D!