Yesterday should have been weigh-in, so why no post from me? Because it was awful, and I had every intention of just skipping it this week. The plan was to take a few days to get my head back in the game, get focused, and get it back off without ever talking about it. Obviously, I fessed up to my accountability partner and BFF, but why hash it out again on my blog?
Because if I don't, what's the point in keeping this blog?
So, here it is.. The post where I tell you I fell flat on my face this weekend. According to the scale, I gained 3.2 lbs between Friday and Monday morning. Now, I did not eat anywhere near the 10,500 calories needed to add over 3 lbs of fat, but I did go over on date night (1875) and again Sunday night (1683). Two meals, both loaded with sodium, combined with not enough water, my TOM and voilà! A gain. A very significant gain. I exercised and ate right all week, and here I am again- 206 is exactly where I got stuck at in December.
When I stepped on the scale this morning and saw that number, I cried. I had gotten up early because yesterday I bought a kettle bell and Bob Harper's DVD to go with it, and wanted to get my workout in early. Instead, I thought "well, screw it then," and went straight back to bed. I cannot tell you just how awful my mood has been for most of the weekend, and how tempting it was right then to just throw in the towel. Thoughts like "I'm never going to see 199 at this rate anyway" crept in, and, well you know where I'm going with this I guess.
I woke up late, and was already late for work, but I decided to make breakfast (screw it, I'm already late, right?). I had my coffee, a poached egg, half a light English muffin, a Clementine, and a glass of light soy milk. Time to practice what I preach (er, comment?). My head is still full of negative thoughts, but that won't stop me from at least going through the motions until I get my focus back. Once I realized I wasn't quitting, I realized how much easier it was to focus while I was still part of Allan's challenge. After emailing back and forth with him this morning, I'm back in Phase 4. For the most part, I never quit following it though I did allow myself more flexibility (which worked for all of a week, btw). I tried it my way for 2 weeks, and we all see how well THAT worked out!
So, here's to kissing 206 goodbye permanently!
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