I know, I'm an awful blogger buddy lately. I've still been keeping up with everyone, but my computer time is limited, thus the lack of commenting and posting! Trying to find a balance between reading/blogging about getting healthier and unplugging to actually do it. And lately, lots of time with my boys has been a crucial part of getting healthier. The proof is in all of the extra Xanax I have left right now ;)
Things are still plugging along, although slowly, on the diet front. Exercise has been almost non-existent for the last week and a half though (aside from one Zumba class last week). I usually work out in the evenings, and a major lack of sleep has me dragging ass by dinner lately. Sleep's always been an issue, but it's just so much worse when there's extra stress. I do eventually fall asleep, but I'm so restless that our bed looks like a war zone by morning. And no, not for good reasons this week! Mr. D sleeps right through it all somehow. On the bright side, I haven't reached for my medicine to help me deal with any of it so far. Yes, I am just oozing awesome sauce today :D
Along with exercise, tracking has slipped a little here and there as well. There's been no binging, but we did have dinner at mom's once this week, and I felt sick afterwards. Once I tracked my calories (1368), it wasn't as bad as I thought- but I ate a few very rich foods that just made me feel gross. I can't remember the last time I had stuffing, and I have no desire to eat it again anytime soon.. Funny how former favorite foods are no longer appealing after a while. And it sneaks up on you apparently.
I've given myself a lot more flexibility with my food choices for a few weeks now, and have done really well for the most part. However, I've also come to realize what a slippery slope this can be for me. Allowing certain foods, even in moderation, makes it more difficult to make smarter choices the rest of the day. Carb addict, carb sensitive.. call it what you will, but that's me through and through. I'll be starting a new plan this weekend that I think will help with this and will help "reset" my metabolism. I love my flexibility (and I'm a lot less stressed over my diet now), but I do need some kind of guidelines. The first few weeks are probably going to suck ass, but it will be worth it. And if not, my mother will be suffering right along side me!
Ask me if I still believe that in 17 days. Yeah, that was kind of a hint.