Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Weigh in

First, let's get the ugly part out of the way. I weighed in at 223.2 on Sunday. That's a gain of 1.2 lbs for the week. It didn't make sense to me, and I doubt the soy sauce in the stir-fry the night before can account for all of it. I know I didn't get to the gym enough during the week, and our weekend was nuts. Working Saturday meant all the errands got bumped to Sunday along with church and time at the pool and park. I'm having trouble finding time getting to the gym at night.. going right after dinner means missing time with kid, and going after he's in bed means missing time with Mr. D, and I'm exhausted by then. I've thought about trying to do them in the morning, but I already get up at 5am. Ick. I'll figure something out.

Moving on..

I started the morning off with coffee and peppermint mocha creamer. It's my favorite :))

For breakfast, kid and I made blueberry banana pancakes. He loves helping me cook, but rarely likes what we make.. heh. My future daughter (or son, I'm open minded!)-in-law can thank me for teaching him later. Mr. D and I thought they were awesome, despite what kid says.

Morning snack was yogurt, which was perfect for my sweet tooth. I've noticed just in the last few days that I'm not craving sweets like I was just a week ago. I know it's from staying away from diet dr. pepper and junky sweet stuff, and plan to continue that. I like my diet dr. peppers on occasion, but I was having them way too often over the summer.

Lunch, which I almost forgot to take a picture of, was a bbq chicken wrap with lettuce and tomato and a white peach. It's beginning to get harder to find good white peaches :(

Dinner was pecan crusted chicken (which we lurved and have added to our regulars), sweet potatoes, and green beans. Chris helped me cook (again), and I wish I'd had my camera when he found out his favorite green beans have pickle juice in them! It. Was. Priceless.

Saturday, August 27, 2011

I already blabbed a bunch today, so I'll keep this short :)

As usual, started the morning off with coffee and almond joy creamer.

Breakfast was a smoothie made with a banana, 1/2 cup strawberries, 1/2 cup peaches, and 1/2 cup skim milk. Also mixed my flax seed in.

Lunch was a cucumber sandwich made with rye and the reduced fat chive and onion cream cheese. Yeah, it's a Toy Story plate.

Coworker brought in a cream cheese rotel dip, and I tried it (and tracked it). I forgot to take a picture since it was just a few bites but found a photo that looks exactly like her.

I was starving before I started making dinner, so snacked on 2 clementines.

Dinner was a chicken and rice stir fry with green tea. The stir fry was a new recipe from one of my favorite cookbooks, but this won't get added to our favorites.. It wasn't awful, just not worth it.

Calories for the day are under 900, which makes up for my pizza day earlier this week ;)

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Wednesday was a biatch to me.

Work was frustrating and lasted 12 hours, and we have to come in Saturday. I had my labs drawn in the morning (not pregnant, they checked) and I HATE needles. Mr. D and I had a come-to-Jesus talk. He's promised to try and be less annoying since I can't take happy pills while trying to get pregnant. Some days it's definitely me, but picking at me doesn't make it easier.

I ended up going over my calories a little yesterday (around 1500 instead of 1200). Not unhappy with that, but my choices weren't all good (pizza) and it was mindless munching. The mindless eating out of frustration is what I have to fix. I plan to start posting food porn until I get back on track. I think stopping to take a photo will help me cut out the mindless snacking.

Breakfast- a low fat waffle with strawberries and lite whip cream, hard-boiled egg, and skim milk.
Snack- cantaloupe.
Lunch- salad, sun dried tomatoes and chicken pasta.
Snack- banana, wheat crackers, and laughing cow cheese.
Dinner- grilled chicken, carrots, salad, and baked potato.

I'll be under my limit for the day by about 100.

Also, my new favorite thing:

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Today, we pout.

This week has not been all sparkly so far. We've had extra stuff come up this week (and y'all know that crap makes me twitchy), homework issues with the kid, and the husband seems to be on a mission to drive me batshit crazy.

Last night, an old friend's husband was going to meet me at the gym (he used to work at a different gym) to help me put together a routine. He stood me up. So after I finished my cardio, I started on the weights by myself. The first one I went to pissed me off. I couldn't get it to move, no matter what the weight was. And, of course, the more I tried to figure it out, the more attention it drew. So I finally kicked the machine (yes, literally) and left. In a huff. If my hair hadn't been up in a knot, I probably would have flipped it with indignation.

Then bff cancelled Zumba tonight. After having last night's workout not go as planned, that was frustrating. I'm not mad at her, just frustrated. I planned to go alone, but dozed off when the guys left for Cub Scouts. No worries, I have Zumba on DVD, right?

Wrong! Mr. D came home and took over the tv to play xbox.

So I'm whining to you guys instead of eating shit. Thanks for helping me not add more dimples to my ass. That's love.

Sunday, August 21, 2011

Weigh in!

It's Sunday, which is scale day for me now. Weigh in showed a 1.6 lb loss.

I was hoping for more, but when am I not?

Mr. D and I are both pretty sore this morning.. like lifting-my-arms-to-dry-my-hair-makes-me-wanna-say-bad-words kind of sore. Last night I did 30 minutes on the elliptical, 30 minutes with the weights, and 15 minutes on the bike. I basically just walked around trying new machines that husband hadn't gotten around to showing me earlier this week. And I've gotta say.. some of those machines are just a wee bit obscene! Some look like medieval torture devices (which is bad enough), but some look like they could be found in my OBGYN's office! Thankfully, the gym was all but dead when I went last night, so my embarrassment was limited to a handful of witnesses. The ab machine that you kneel and spin on was probably the most entertaining for them ;)

Ideally, I'd fly my husband's best friend in from Boston to coach me. He loved Memphis (well, Beale Street anyway) when he was here for the wedding, so offering a home and cooking for him in exchange for being my personal trainer-- that's a good deal, right?! Heh.

My gym offers unlimited "smart training" apparently, so I'll be checking into that this week. Will keep y'all posted on my bug-scaring muscles progress!

Saturday, August 20, 2011

Cicada's and Meatheads

My first week back on plan has been good. Last night we splurged a little for my BFF's birthday, but still kept it in check. I planned to go to the gym afterwards to negate some of the splurge, but we decided to see "Fright Night" after dinner ( I lurve vampire movies!). We left Mr. D in charge of checking movie times, and that was a bad idea since he drank almost an entire pitcher of peach sangria at dinner! We asked for tickets to the 8:30 showing, and didn't realize until we got ready to go in that the cashier had given us all tickets to the 9:45 show. I'll never trust the Flixster app again..

BFF and I were attacked by cicada's afterwards, so at least we weren't bored while waiting for the movie. One flew in my hair. And I shrieked. Just like a girl. Ugh.

This week, we bought Mr. D a membership to the gym. We had a chance to go together once this week (won't happen often with the kid), and it was nice. He used an elliptical for the first time, and it was hysterical watching him try to figure it out! He got a chance to laugh at me, too, so I don't feel that bad. I've had my membership almost a year now, and have never used any of the weights. I want to, I just have no clue what to use and not sure if the staff at our gym would be much help. Mr. D worked at the gym on his college campus, so he took me around and showed me how to use a few.

First, can I say how weird it felt to be the only girl over there??? At our gym, there's 2 sections with weights. One is just machines, and the other is mostly free weights where all the meatheads hang out and grunt (is grunting a requirement to use that side of the gym?). I rarely see girls over in the meathead section. So of course, that's where Mr. D took me. And laughed because I couldn't reach the pulley things. He stopped laughing when I used 70lbs on the rowing machine. He said that was good for a girl, but I have absolutely no comparison so he may have just been trying to redeem himself ;)

I liked using the weights, and want to start adding that in a lot more. I've used my 5lb dumbbells, but that's not the same. It takes a LOT of use for those to make my muscles sore. Just 25 minutes using weights with Mr. D and I'm still sore 2 days later. I don't like being sore the next day, but at least I know I didn't waste my time.

So, if anyone has a weight lifting program they really like, I definitely need suggestions! Ideally, I want to be so physically intimidating that cicada's will fly away screaming. That's my only requirement after last night. *shudder*

Off to the pool with Chris now, will catch up on blogs later tonight :))

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Keeping this short because SOMEONE is cooking corn dogs.

Someone cyber slap me if this happens tomorrow too, but exercise didn't make it in today. My work schedule changed when school started, so I'm going in at 6:45 and getting off at 3 so I can pick my son up from school. As I was heading out the door this morning, he decides to tell me that tonight is "meet the teacher night" at school. Had he not left his binder at school the day before, I would've known that. So my afternoon plans got all jumbled (had to leave him with my mom since kids aren't supposed to come), and we didn't get home until well after his bedtime. I'd like to know who thought scheduling a parent-teacher night from 6-8 on a school night was a good idea.. Third grade is going to take some adjusting for all of us. There's a significant difference in the homework load (we worked on it from 4 until I had to leave, and he still wasn't done!), and they're moving at a much faster pace. His teachers (yes, plural- team teaching starts this year for us since we're in an optional school) seem great, so I'm optimistic.

Food/water were great today. I added the flaxseed to oatmeal this morning, but was nauseated before breakfast, so who knows if that made a difference. Mr. D suggested it may be the prenatal vitamins and flaxseed combined since both contain iron. I'm anemic and have always been sensitive to iron supplements, so that's possible!

Husband just got home from work and is heating up corn dogs and fries rather than the chicken and salad I had ready.. so I'll be heading to bed now! No need to test the little bit of self control I've regained so far!

Also, if someone wants to stab Mr. D with the stick from his corn dog, that's cool with me. He deserves it. He just had his physical at my office, and his triglycerides were high. I definitely won't be letting those back in the house again.

Monday, August 15, 2011

Three days in and exercise has been consistent. I made it to the gym tonight, but didn't stay quite an hour. 30 minutes on the elliptical, and 15 minutes on the treadmill when I got extremely dizzy and icky. Falling or getting sick in the middle of the gym both sounded equally unpleasant, so I left. Had to sit in the car for a bit before I could drive home. I still don't know what caused it, but my stomach's been iffy all day.

Which leads me to my question.. Does anyone else use flaxseed? I bought ground flaxseed for the first time (thank you, in-laws), and added it to my green monster this morning. Halfway through my smoothie, and I was begging it to stay down. I used 1 tbsp, maybe that was too much? I hadn't heard anything about easing into it, but who knows.

Sunday, August 14, 2011

2 days does not yet make a routine.

I stayed on track all day yesterday- with food, water, and exercise! I know, just one day, but it's the first day in who knows how long that I can say that.

I did make it to the gym last night, and got my favorite elliptical. My buns and thighs are so sore this morning after the BL kinect game, but it's a good hurt. Mr. D did his best to, ahem, work me out this morning.. but I'm still getting ready to go for a walk. It's insane what that little bit of activity can do to my libido (which will make getting pregnant a lot easier, I hope)! It's cool enough this morning that I may live through it, too! Memphis humidity is just evil, so I'm going to squeeze in some outdoor walking in the mornings when I can.

It's just 2 days, but I'm not thinking too far ahead. Just focusing on doing better today.

Hope everyone else enjoys the rest of their weekend!

Saturday, August 13, 2011

How's this for a scary story?

You work your ass off for months, and lose 50 lbs. FIFTY!

But then you hit a plateau and get frustrated. So you allow life to get in the way of your goals. You quit trying as hard. Then you quit completely.

And you gain half of it back. Or 23. Either way, scary. And depressing. And embarrassing. And lots of other equally sucky feelings.

And you KNOW better. That's the kicker.

That's my reality right now. I think the scariest part is how easy it was to fall back into the same old bad habits that got me to 250 lbs in the first place. How easily my new good habits went out the window under stress. How easily I ignored how tight my new clothes (my reward for hitting the 50 lb mark) were getting.

Not only did I fall off the wagon, it backed up and ran over me a few times.

I keep making promises to myself about "tomorrow." But anyone that's dieted before knows exactly how "tomorrow" works. It never gets here.

My husband even gave me a free pass, in a way. We stopped taking birth control at the end of June. This is the first month we are actively trying to get pregnant (woot!!) after having my first AF visit. He thinks it would be silly to try and lose weight right before getting pregnant, because I'd be gaining it right back. Maybe.

I still got up this morning and worked out. For the first time in m-o-n-t-h-s. I used my Biggest Loser kinect game, and lemme tell ya.. not working out for a few months? Gaining half of what you lost back? It HURTS. Even though I'm still 27 lbs lighter than when I started, this morning felt like starting from scratch. A 30 minute workout hasn't sucked that bad in a long time. Even so, my sore ass will be at the gym tonight.

So here I am, starting from scratch basically. My short term goals for the week are just to do better. Eat better (food hasn't actually been awful, just too much snacking at the wrong time of day), move more, and relax. I can't take happy pills while trying to get pregnant, and I stress easy. I guess this makes the exercise that much more important. Food's been my happy pill the last few months and it's out of hand.

Also, I'm a shitty blogger friend for just disappearing. I wish I could say I've been reading everyone's posts and just not commenting, but I haven't even done that. It's a lot easier to be a slug in denial when you're not reading about everyone else still trucking along. Still, sorry for being a shit. I did start catching up a few days ago, and that may have been what made me just get up and do it today. It's easier to confront this head on when surrounded by other people with the same goals. Lesson learned.