Thursday, December 15, 2011
Saturday, November 5, 2011
They released mom from the hospital Monday evening because she'd been able to keep very bland solid food down for 24 hours. They STILL didn't know what was causing everything. At one point, they mentioned gallstones, but that was ruled out. Upon being discharged, the doctor wanted her to make an appt with him for a colonoscopy (which he thinks is not going to show anything because they would have seen it by now), and was then going to refer her to an endocrinologist. He mentioned Addison's disease as an example, which I know nothing about, but not all of the listed symptoms fit. Basically, after 2 hospitalizations, they're still clueless. On the bright side, I guess they've at least ruled a few things out..
But then she got sick again Monday night, and got worse the next 24 hours while telling me she was FINE. We all prepared to head back to the hospital when she mentioned her first meal out of the hospital was fried chicken from a fast food place. SERIOUSLY?!?!? Once that was out of her system, she got better but is still feeling very weak.
When I was there cleaning yesterday, she looked more like herself and was eating fine. I'll be spending the day there for more cleaning and grocery shopping for her, which is frustrating. I swear, I do NOT mind taking care of my mother, not at all. God knows she took care of me whenever I was sick for years, haha! What frustrates me is that both of my adult brothers live with her, and they could be doing a lot more for her. Or, my dad could have chosen not to go for a 3 week long training program for work in New Jersey. He left Sunday morning when we still had no clue what was wrong but were looking at the possibility of surgery. His company was understanding and said they could send someone else. He still went, and didn't have time to stop in and see her before his flight. Yep, I'm frustrated. My mother has been a SAHM since she had me, and continued to stay home with grandbabies after that, and does everything for my dad. EVERYTHING. The man had to pack for himself for the first time in 25 years, and wasn't sure where his dress shoes were. Seriously. Yet he left when my mom was sicker than I've ever seen her. She was too out of it to really think about it much until she got home, but now she's hurt and mad. And I don't blame her.
So I'll be there all day, trying to get the house clean. She's been sick on and off for a while now, and the chemicals have been something she just couldn't tolerate. And God forbid any of the three men living with her pick up a toilet brush. Oy vey.
Saturday, October 29, 2011
My mother's in the hospital, and we don't know what's wrong. She's been having random nausea/vomiting/sweating spells for the past few months, and she said Dr. H hasn't been able to figure it out yet. I would NOT be shocked if she has been downplaying how she's feeling either. She was hospitalized while in Michigan on vacation, and they couldn't figure it out then either. They thought it may be her gallbladder, but ruled that out. After 2 days, they called it food poisoning and sent her home. She's been home from vacation for about a month now, and the spells have continued and just gotten worse. Earlier this week, she got bad enough that my brothers and I were threatening to knock her out and call an ambulance. She's stubborn and definitely didn't want to go. Once her face and hands went numb, she let us take her. Crazy asshat..
So far, they've treated her for dangerously low potassium levels (and something about the potassium is making her act like she's had a stroke at times.. slurring her speech, no control of her hands, very confused). As of last night, her doctor thinks the low potassium is an effect, not a cause. Especially since her potassium was NOT low when she was hospitalized in Michigan. They ran a long list of tests yesterday including a CT, MRI, colon scan, echo, and HIDA, and we're waiting on the results now. Her doctor also mentioned multiple ulcers because they're constantly draining blood from her stomach, and also thinks this too is an effect.
Basically, they don't know what the hell is wrong yet, and that's scary. Having my mother cry hysterically while trying to pull a tube out of her nose and begging me to take her home is even scarier. My mom does NOT cry. Ever. And then she informed me that she knew she wasn't leaving the hospital alive. Fuck.
So yeah, it's been a bad week. Prayers are definitely appreciated right now. As of last night, she was at least aware of what's going on and able to carry on a conversation (in between getting sick). So that's an improvement.
Hopefully, they'll tell us today that she just has the flu or something. And then we'll all laugh about how freaked out we all were. That would be awesome.
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Sorry this is a bit late! The weekend was pretty busy for us, and Monday was just yucky and emotional.
I joined the TDD challenge on Thursday last week and started at 219.8 lbs. I weighed in Sunday at 217.2 lbs for a loss of 2.6 in less than a week. Definitely happy with that, especially after the temptations I faced all weekend!
Saturday was the harvest festival, so the kid and I went with several friends. There was face painting, pumpkin painting, games, moonbounces, and food. Like fair food. As in funnel cake, corndogs, and loaded nachos. OMGILOVEFUNNELCAKE. I thought it would be easy, just avoid that section of the festival, right?? Wrong! My son tried a piece of funnel cake, courtesy of my brother, and LOVED it. Of course he did. Not only did I get in line and order him one, I had to hold his plate and tear pieces off for him.. hot sugarcoated pieces of fried dough.. funnel cake smells like heaven.. AND my friend ordered the nachos, and offered to share her cheesy chili goodness too.
But you know what? I had neither. Kid shared his funnel cake with our friends, (God knows he didn't need all of that either), and I declined on the nachos as well. I was absolutely starving by the time we got home (we were there a lot longer than planned), and had my salad and vegetable soup as planned. Was it good? Yep. Was it funnel cake? Hell naw. But at the end of the day, I felt good about my choices.
Sunday took us to a birthday party for our friend's son. Food was out to get me this weekend. I had a burger (one of our lunch options) with mustard and veggies, and that was it. No chips and dip, no cake and ice cream. I stuck to my plan, and it was a piece of cake. Heh. There were toddlers EVERYWHERE at the party, and it was awesome. I love toddlers, it's my favorite stage because everything is just so new and exciting for them.
Monday rolled around, and it just bitch slapped all my happy feelings from the weekend and my weigh in. My brother's baby mama is having a girl, and I'm happy for her, but a little heartbroken. I was the last girl born in our family, and I had really hoped to have the first girl. I know it's stupid, but it's true. I also got a call from a friend asking if I was pregnant yet because she just found out she is. It wasn't planned and she's more scared than excited right now. I'm so happy for her, but definitely jealous. Monday ended with Mr. D and I upset (way too personal to share the details), and me crying a lot. I think we're okay now, but we'll see.
I hope everyone else is having an easy week!
Friday, October 7, 2011
First things first.. Friday is our BL weigh in at work. I was nervous all week, even brought money thinking this may be the week I'd have to pay into the pot. Not only was I struggling at the beginning of the week, I've been dealing with plumbing problems (sorry for the tmi!). Both issues have been resolved.though, and I'm happy to report that I'm back in first place again!
I think I've found a solution to the struggling as well. Last year, I participated in Allan's double dog dare challenge, and it really helped me. I didn't just survive the holidays, I owned them. I got down to my lowest weight in 8 years. I saw 200, but never moved past that. Why? I still don't know why, but I know how. Something about 200 messed with my head. I struggled and couldn't move past it, and eventually just stopped. Then I welcomed back 25 lbs over the summer. I say welcomed because I made the choices that put the weight back on. The hell with that, someone kick my ass if I just give up again.
So Thursday, I signed up for the triple dog dare challenge (I'll link to it later- not sure how to on my phone). My starting weight was 219.8 lbs, and my predicted weight on January 1 is 183 lbs. Sploosh! I want to see that SO BAD.
On another note, it's Mental Illness Awareness week! Make sure your crazy, twitchy friends know you love them! Mr. D thinks HE needs a holiday for putting up with me, especially since I've been off my anxiety meds since June.
Take it up with Hallmark, husband.
Saturday, October 1, 2011
This weekend has been a little emotional and crazy, but I'm just not in the mood to share it here right now. The good news is that I got to see my nephew for the first time since June and he remembers me :)
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
One is a Hungry Girl recipe and the other from my TOH cookbook. I'm taking the cupcakes to work tomorrow, if they survive the night with husband and kid- apparently they haven't realized it's a diet recipe. Heh.
Caramel Pumpkin Pudding Cupcakes
2 cups moist-style yellow cake mix (I use sugar free)
1 cup canned pumpkin
1/3 cup water
1/2 cup fat-free liquid egg substitute
2 tbsp sugar-free maple syrup
2 tsp cinnamon
2 tsp Splenda
1/8 tsp salt
3 cubes chewy caramel (about 1 oz)
2 tsp light vanilla soy milk (I used skim instead)
Preheat the oven to 350.
Combine all cupcake ingredients in a mixing bowl. Whip with a whisk or fork for 2 minutes until well blended. Spray muffin pan or line with baking cups. Spoon batter evenly into muffin cups. Bake for 10-12 minutes. Cupcakes will puff up but still appear a little gooey on top. Centers will also be gooey (thus the pudding cupcake thing).
While cupcakes cool, place caramel and milk in microwaveable dish. Milk will bubble up, so make sure the bowl is large enough. Microwave at medium power for 1-1/2 minutes. Stir vigorously until smooth. Immediately drizzle over cupcakes.
Makes 12 servings at 108 calories each or 3 points plus.
1-1/2 cups cold fat-free milk
1 pkg sugar-free instant butterscotch pudding mix
1/2 cup canned pumpkin
1/2 tsp cinnamon
1/4 tsp ginger
1/4 tsp allspice
1 cup fat-free whipped topping
In a large bowl, whisk milk and pudding mix for 2 minutes. Let stand for 2 minutes or until soft-set. Combine the pumpkin, cinnamon, ginger, and allspice; fold into pudding. Fold in 1/2 cup whipped topping.
Transfer to individual serving dishes. Refrigerate until serving. Garnish with remaining whipped topping.
Makes 4 servings at 96 calories or 2 points plus.
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
This is week 2 for our BL contest at work, and I'm sort of regretting it already. It's the third time we've done this, and the first round was great. Second round was not. People were skipping weigh-ins since they knew they were going to gain (and pay in to the pot). Some just happened to be absent from work on Friday, but a few just flat out said they weren't weighing because they didn't want to weigh-in. Eventually, most of us dropped out (myself included) because it just wasn't fun like that. When boss friend asked if we could do a third round, I wasn't sure I wanted to. A bunch of coworkers were excited about it though, so we did. AFTER adding some new rules in. Apparently, I was not the only one a little frustrated over how the last round went. One rule that a few people demanded: No skipping weigh-ins! If you skip one, you're out of the game. If you're sick, you have to weigh-in the first day you're back. Period.
Technically, no one is asking to skip a weigh-in yet, but I'm still frustrated. We have a coworker leaving the company and Thursday is her last day. We talked about having a little thing for her and all bringing snacks. Great idea, I like her. I plan to bring my low-cal pumpkin caramel cupcakes (I think they're 3-4 points on new ww). And then someone asked if we could move the weigh-in to Thursday. The same someone that was so adamant about having all these new rules. My vote to just bring healthier snacks was in the minority. The majority was in favor of weighing Thursday so they can eat junk later.
I'll still be weighing in Friday morning.
I don't think it's changing the rules that's actually bothering me. It's the fact that everyone was so excited about a new round, and then half gained during the first week. Now we're in the second week, and they're rearranging the weigh-in so they can eat shit and not face the scale the next day. At least half of the people participating are making no effort at all. THAT is what's really bothering me. Actually keeping up with the contest takes very little time on my part, but a few of us are trying really hard and taking this seriously. As we ALL should.
This week has been great, and easy actually. Monday was a rest day, and today was another date with Jillian. I've got my weights and ball out to use while I watch BL tonight. I'm already getting a little sore from earlier, but that just reassures me I didn't waste my time! I definitely don't "phone it in" with 30 Day Shred!
Ooooo! I found canned pumpkin at the grocery store this weekend! FINALLY. I made pumpkin mousse last night, and I forgot how awesome it was. It's pumpkin pie in pudding form. And only 2 points. Epic.
Sunday, September 25, 2011
Saturday, September 24, 2011
Memphis weather was awesome today, so we had a picnic at the park and planned a walk. Unfortunately, our local weather man was wrong about the no rain thing, and it started raining about 5 minutes after we finished eating. Guess no walk!
Obviously, today turned into a rest day. My legs needed it. I still want to do the 30 Day Shred for the entire 30 days, but I'm settling for every other day for a week first.
My kiddo is with his dad this weekend, and Mr. D worked all weekend long, so I pretty much hung out with bff and her family all day. Her husband (Mr. D's bff) made me salmon! I mentioned wanting to try making it, so we all loaded up and headed to the store to get some. He kept it simple, and pan-fried it (he suggested grilling instead but his tank was empty) in a tsp of olive oil with carribean jerk seasoning. I actually liked it :))
Tomorrow.. please pray for my diet. Taking the kiddo to a birthday at Incredible Pizza. For those not familiar with it, it's like Chuck E Cheese for big kids with a buffet of everything kids love- pizza, tacos, pastas and junk in general. I think there's a salad bar, but that's the only healthy option.
Honestly, most of that doesn't even sound good. Workout is planned early in the morning, the pain in my legs should be an amazing reminder not to eat junk!
Friday, September 23, 2011
First BL weigh in at work, and it was crazy! Half gained, half lost. I'm happy to report that I was in the half that lost (1 lb). Even with that small loss, I'm still tied for first right now. Hopefully there's a boost in morale soon!
My legs didn't feel too bad when I got up this morning.. until I had to go downstairs. Ouch! They've gotten worse as the day progressed, but nothing unbearable. Just a little zombie shuffling.
I'm meeting the BFF for dinner tonight, and she wants pizza. Oy vey. Salad and veggie pizza is my plan, but I've got 17 daily points and 42 weekly points left to work with, should something else catch my eye. I did cheat nights in the beginning, and ate whatever I wanted. I was a dumbass. Nothing wrong with splurging a little, but it will be within my points. Period.
My stipulation to pizza for dinner was hitting the gym together afterwards, so that's the plan. Knowing I'll be sweating soon after should help keep me in check! Maybe the elliptical will help loosen my legs up!
Hope everyone has a wonderful night!!
Thursday, September 22, 2011
HOW IN THE WORLD DID JILLIAN HURT ME THAT MUCH THAT FAST?!?
I'm just sayin' guys.. 45 minutes of weights at the gym, and I don't wimp out there, but I never get sore until AT LEAST a few hours later!
Jillian's like a platypus.. small, and cute, but full of poison that will KILL your buns and thighs!
Someone that's actually made it through all 30 days, does it get easier?
That is all.
Biggest Loser started up this week, and it looks like it might be more interesting than the last few seasons. I love the show, but haven't really followed it as closely the past few seasons. Partially because I have ADD, and watching a 2 hour show every week is just asking too much. We did watch the weigh-ins, though. Is anyone else watching this season?
In other news, I'm cooking salmon tomorrow night. Mostly because I have it in the freezer and neither of the boys will be home to complain about it. I am not a fish person, unless it's fried. I found 2 tilapia recipes that weren't bad, but that's the best I can say. I'm stubborn though, and determined to find fish recipes I can enjoy simply for the health benefits. So any awesome fish recipes you have (doesn't have to be salmon- just whatever), lay it on me :))
**I've been commenting this week on blogs via a new app on my phone, and JUST saw that they aren't showing up apparently. I'm not being an ass, honest, just faulty technology :(