Sunday, February 27, 2011

200.8 and Day 1 Do-Over.

200.8 (down 1.2 for the week)?? I'm so close to finally being under 200! I hopped back on a few times just to make sure, and got the same number all 3 times. I will be below 200 next week. On the new plan, there's no way it won't happen.

Speaking of new plan, yesterday was tough. The missing carbs had me a little shaky by dinner, which really made me feel like a junkie! I can already see where I'm going to run into problems.. since I can't have fruit after 2pm, finding handy snacks on the go may be difficult. All meals, even lunch now, are going to require a lot of planning ahead. Dinner always has, but I've always had back-up meals for breakfast and lunch (like peanut butter toast with banana and lean cuisines) and those won't be added in until later, if at all. It won't be an issue, I just can't wait until the last minute. I'll be packing individual salads for something quick, and a few hard boiled eggs will be an easy breakfast when I'm running late for work.

Also, since today was weigh-in, I'm scrapping yesterday as Day 1 on the first cycle and starting today. No real reason, just seemed good to start counting on weigh-in day. Easier to keep track of.

I've already had a few friends tell me there's no way they could do this plan- mostly because it's too strict. Just to clear this up- it is strict. The list of foods you can have for the first 17 day cycle is short. However, it's just 17 days. The next cycle starts adding natural starchy vegetables back in (in moderation, and before 2pm). You can do anything for 17 days, right? Especially knowing there's a light at the end of the tunnel? That's how I'm approaching it. Yes, it's going to suck some days- but I can deal for 17 days.

Saturday, February 26, 2011

Day 1..Kill me now.

Last night, I had dinner out with a friend as sort of a farewell to some of the foods that will be omitted for a few weeks. I ordered a 6 oz steak with broccoli (no butter) and salad- the steak being the only thing I can't have for a while (no red meat until Cycle 2). I had a small piece of chocolate later, and that's it. Not much of a farewell, eh?

Today? I miss carbs already. Bad. I brought husband a Reese's egg home last night, and he left it on the coffee table. Bad move. It's still there, and will be when he gets home, but damn. Less than 24 hours into this and I know beyond the shadow of a doubt that I'm a carb/sugar addict now. Giving up diet sodas (and then adding them back in once a week) was nothing. This? Withdrawal!

Breakfast was yogurt and a clementine. Lunch was scrambled eggs with tons of veggies thrown in (more veggies than egg). Dinner will be a chicken and veggie stir-fry from Genghis tonight. The parents are finally trying this place, and are both on this new plan with me, so it should be fun. Lots of fish, chicken, veggies, and green tea in my future.

And yes, mom is definitely doing the healthy thing with me now! She's the one that told me about the "17 Day Diet" in the first place and ordered the book. My dad is a little overweight, and is joining in too but basically skipping the first cycle and still having natural starches (something Mr. D has mentioned trying as well!). Dad's issue is mostly the amount of sugar he eats- he'll be diabetic in no time if he continues eating the way he is. It's going to be nice doing this together with them, but mom will probably have an easier time with the carbs than I will. We tried Atkins together once, and she did great with it. Me? Not so much. The fact that I struggle more with it is just further proof that it's necessary in my opinion.

Now I need help from all you culinary experts out there! I've NEVER cooked fish before, and will be trying tilapia and salmon this week. Any simple recipes for grilling/baking would be much appreciated!

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Ch-ch-ch-ch-changes!! Is David Bowie singing in your head now, too? Aww, yeah.

I know, I'm an awful blogger buddy lately. I've still been keeping up with everyone, but my computer time is limited, thus the lack of commenting and posting! Trying to find a balance between reading/blogging about getting healthier and unplugging to actually do it. And lately, lots of time with my boys has been a crucial part of getting healthier. The proof is in all of the extra Xanax I have left right now ;)

Things are still plugging along, although slowly, on the diet front. Exercise has been almost non-existent for the last week and a half though (aside from one Zumba class last week). I usually work out in the evenings, and a major lack of sleep has me dragging ass by dinner lately. Sleep's always been an issue, but it's just so much worse when there's extra stress. I do eventually fall asleep, but I'm so restless that our bed looks like a war zone by morning. And no, not for good reasons this week! Mr. D sleeps right through it all somehow. On the bright side, I haven't reached for my medicine to help me deal with any of it so far. Yes, I am just oozing awesome sauce today :D

Along with exercise, tracking has slipped a little here and there as well. There's been no binging, but we did have dinner at mom's once this week, and I felt sick afterwards. Once I tracked my calories (1368), it wasn't as bad as I thought- but I ate a few very rich foods that just made me feel gross. I can't remember the last time I had stuffing, and I have no desire to eat it again anytime soon.. Funny how former favorite foods are no longer appealing after a while. And it sneaks up on you apparently.

I've given myself a lot more flexibility with my food choices for a few weeks now, and have done really well for the most part. However, I've also come to realize what a slippery slope this can be for me. Allowing certain foods, even in moderation, makes it more difficult to make smarter choices the rest of the day. Carb addict, carb sensitive.. call it what you will, but that's me through and through. I'll be starting a new plan this weekend that I think will help with this and will help "reset" my metabolism. I love my flexibility (and I'm a lot less stressed over my diet now), but I do need some kind of guidelines. The first few weeks are probably going to suck ass, but it will be worth it. And if not, my mother will be suffering right along side me!

Ask me if I still believe that in 17 days. Yeah, that was kind of a hint.

Sunday, February 20, 2011


Just another quick check-in, things are still hectic right now! Trying my best to at least keep up with everyone's posts, but not a lot of time for commenting right now..

Still here and moving along. Weigh-in today showed another 1.6 lb loss, putting me at 202- my lowest weight in years! I haven't been below 200 (I saw it once on a previous diet, but then screwed everything up) and stayed there since before I had my son. It's going slowly, but at least it's moving in the right direction!

Update on my brother.. They have a court date set for 3/14 to handle the assault charges, and it looks like he may not be able to work until the charges are dismissed because he's an armed guard. Thankfully, his boss is trying to find a way around it, but we don't know anything yet. Then they'll be moving on to the custody issue once this is resolved.

It's late, I'm exhausted, and that's all I've got for now! Hope everyone has a wonderful week!

Tuesday, February 15, 2011


Sorry I've been a little quiet the last few days-- I've got over 200 unread blogs in my reader right now and just haven't had the time to sit down and catch up, but I'm working on it! Just a quick update..

Sunday's weigh in was down 1.2 lbs- 203.6 after my Valentine's dinner with Mr. D the night before. I didn't count calories Saturday between Jackson's (Steph and Matt's son) first birthday, and our Valentine's Day night out. I was responsible without being obsessive, and had a loss the next morning. It was a nice change to actually enjoy our date rather than worrying about every single bite and how it would affect the scale. Focused but flexible, it's working so far.

Between Thursday evening and this morning, there has been a lot of bullshit (sorry, there's no better word to describe it) between my brother and his son's mother beginning with her taking off with their son and ending with him in jail this morning for something he never did to ensure he has trouble getting joint custody. The charges are entirely false, and he'll be out tomorrow at the latest, but this is just the beginning. I'd convinced my brother that keeping this between them rather than involving the court was the best thing for their son (having done it both ways with my own son), but there's no way around it now, and it just plain sucks. On one hand, I hurt for my brother right now. I can't imagine what it would be like to need a judge's approval before seeing my child. On the other hand, witnessing this has made me so grateful that my son's father and I were able to work things out on our own. Ironically, his dad is a cop here and was able to help us breathe a little easier over the arrest and what's going to come of it.

Needless to say, the last few days have been a little chaotic.

Sunday, February 6, 2011


Just a quick update, I honestly don't have much to say after this weekend. Xanax has been my BFF for a few days. Work, my friend's husband, fighting with my husband over my friend's husband.. And of course, it's all more fun with PMS. Can't really make any decisions until PMS is no longer a factor, but may be making an appointment with Dr. H if I can't get this under control. I'm just plain tired of the emotional roller coaster, and how it can (or at least make it incredibly difficult) affect my diet.

Regardless, I was still down 1.4 lbs on Sunday this week. Hello, 204.8 :)

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Does this mean I lost the war..?

I went to bed much later than I planned last night, so today has kind of dragged by. If it weren't for office drama, I may have nodded off at my desk. Today was just.. long. I won't bore you with work details, but there was a meeting today and some changes were made- changes everyone originally thought they wanted. But the stereotype for women holds true, we really don't know what we want, heh. I don't love all the details either, but I'm kind of at a point where I'm just refusing to let myself get worked up over such little details. (Look how rational I sound after exercising this week?!?!)

Anyway.. so I won the battle over breakfast this morning, but then dinner rolled around. I had this awesome meal planned.. I was going to make the shrimp stir-fry I get at Genghis Grill myself, and it was going to be epic. I even dreamed about this stir-fry. Shrimp, brown rice, carrots, broccoli, and honey soy sauce (which I found a recipe for). Sounds simple, right? Apparently not! I still have no clue where I went wrong, but I screwed it up in a way that would make Emeril cry. No "Bam!" for me tonight.

I guess the universe came back for revenge.. Maybe I shouldn't have gloated over breakfast.

Instead of my epic Mongolian stir-fry, I popped a lean cuisine in the microwave. I keep a few on hand for such occasions. Don't judge me ;)

Weigh-in for office BL contest is tomorrow morning- scale has held steady at a pound down all week, so we'll see what happens. Since I weigh naked at home, I never know what to expect fully clothed at work! My boss-friend went out and bought a scale this week so the-one-I-don't-like won't test me in the mornings anymore. I'm rarely nice on a good day, so pushing my buttons before I've had coffee and breakfast.. just not a good idea.

Thursday's Totals: 905 calories
Breakfast- Whole grain oatmeal with strawberries and coffee (210 cal)
Snack- Light yogurt (110 cal)
Lunch- Cup of vegetable soup with turkey sandwich and salad (235 cal)
Snack- Banana
Dinner- Lean cuisine and green beans (250 cal)
Water- 150 oz
Exercise- 3 miles on treadmill (first half running/walking intervals, second half on a varying incline) and 30 Day Shred L1

Sorry I'm late boss, I was battling the universe over breakfast..

Let's be honest.. I'm late for just about everything. I try to be at work by 7am, but 7:30 is more often when I get there. Not today!

That's what time I LEFT for work. I even got up half an hour earlier this morning (and squeezed out 5 extra push-ups), so what went wrong?

I just wanted some waffles, y'all.. Is that really too much to ask? Apparently, as the universe was conspiring against me today on the waffle front. I tried twice and burned them both times. The kiddo's waffles came out perfect though.

The culprit?

I don't know why my beloved toaster oven was upset with me this morning.. Perhaps it was confused since we normally make English muffins together. Either way, this left me with some strawberry mush (thawed frozen strawberries mushed up) and nothing to pour it over.

The solution?

Whole grain instant oatmeal, with my mush mixed in! Filling (couldn't finish all of it) and only 200 calories.

And yes, delicious. I win.

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Wednesday, February 2, 2011

A blonde Harry plus a fat Ron.

Today was long, not a fan of 12 hour work days. One of the things I dislike most about the long days are not having enough time with my son. He waited up for me tonight though and had his bedtime snack while I had dinner so we could have some time together. I may not have gotten much right in my life so far, but Chris is proof that I'm not a total screw up. That, or he's amazingly resilient because he's absolutely the best thing (along with Mr. D) in my life. And he's a sarcastic little turd. Not sure where he gets that from.. Today we got a note from school letting us know that one of his classmates had lice (ironically, he spent the weekend with his dad and was exposed to it there as well apparently). I told him I'd check him again before bed. He told me it should be easy since I shaved. him. bald.


Despite what he may tell you, he is not bald. I did have it buzzed pretty short Sunday, however, because he was creating a huge bald spot playing with his hair. Now that he has none, he's moved on to mine. How smart was that, mom? Especially considering I already lose a hand full of hair every morning in the shower despite being on Bitoin for months. Dr. H says it's normal (I bet her hair isn't falling out). Healthy living, with help from the offspring, is going to make me bald.

Short hair looks good on Chris. Someone said he looked like a blond Harry Potter last week. Has his own little scar and all.

Me? Not so much. Although we do seem to have "Harry" in common though.

Yes, I did find that picture from the HP7 midnight book release. I don't recall Ron being that fat, either. And Steph breaks her anonymity here on the blog. Big day.

Wednesday's Totals: 1158 calories
Breakfast- Veggie omelet with fat free cheese, light toast, and coffee (193 cal)
Snack- Light Yogurt (110 cal)
Lunch- Turkey sandwich, pickle, and baked bbq lays (245 cal)
Snack- Banana, light string cheese, and half a 100 calorie pack- can you tell I got the munchies?! (220 cal)
Dinner- Greek style scampi and salad with Italian spritzer (390 cal)
Water- 96 oz, but nursing a 4th bottle
Exercise- 30 Day Shred L1

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

I just saw the first weigh-in for Biggest Loser this week, and I blanked on a title. Damn.

Wow. I won't blow it for anyone that still has it on DVR, but wow.

My morning started off with push-ups, thanks to my awesome accountability partner adding it to our spreadsheet. The plan is to do them daily, first thing, and see how we progress over the next month. March will add something new as well. I just want to say to anyone else that's struggling- an accountability partner is an awesome idea. When we see each other struggling, or not logging (he created this masterpiece of a spreadsheet for us) for more than a day, we call each other out. Even when we're off track, it's still helpful to have each other to bounce ideas off of or vent to. We're calling January a "warm-up" and we both kicked February off to an awesome start!

I loved all the responses on the last post re: pacing or pushing! Mixing it up is definitely the plan, best of both worlds and all. Right now, I'm aiming for cardio 5 days a week, strength 3 days a week and plan to mix both up on intensity/endurance depending on how I feel that day. Exercise was cardio again today (Snow didn't cancel Zumba this week- Steph is sick and Mr. D is working late), and I did manage running/walking intervals for the first mile, but the knee twinged.. Rather than risk making it angry, I slowed it down to a brisk walk. Also got in all the Phase 4 exercises with my morning push-ups. The wall-sits are a lot easier already, I can hold the full minute on the first 2 sets, the third set is still tough though! Chris tried to sit on my lap when I was almost done.. that one definitely didn't hold the full minute!

Tuesday's Totals: 1100
Breakfast- Coffee, fat free milk, 2 clementines, 1 slice light bread with light butter, 1 poached egg (305 cal)
Snack- Light yogurt (110 cal)
Lunch- 1 cup light vegetable soup, turkey sandwich on light bread with lettuce and mustard, broccoli steamed (240 cal)
Snack- 3 oz baby carrots with Ranch spritzer (50 cal)
Dinner- Greek Style Scampi with steamed mixed vegetables (395 cal)
Water- 150 oz
Exercise- Jumping jacks, wall-sits, stairs and 2.5 miles walking/running intervals

Scale is down today, can't wait to see what Sunday brings! I've really struggled the last few weeks with my motivation and mood after getting stuck for a few weeks. After this weekend, I finally feel like I'm regaining my focus (the consistency will come with it this week) and it's time to put the rest in place. I'm tired of treading water and wasting time. I know how to do this, time to prove it.

Anywho, time to watch Biggest Loser!